This is a Q & A from a subscriber that I answered the best way using the scriptures. I hope it helps others out there that are struggling with this as I know I do at times.
This is my belief and I am sharing with others to encourage them. I hope you all find it helpful!
When a trial comes in my life, there are always more than one. As a Christian I can chose one of 2 paths, endure or take the easy road and chose something that would not honor a please the Lord.
I am choosing to endure. To take the other road would be to disobey the Lord and I know my life would be more miserable. I need God and to be in His will and not in my own. As I am going through attacks at the moment, my heart hurts and is saddened. To be sad is not a sin. We have emotions that the Lord has given us. My joy remains which is totally different from my sadness. I rejoice in salvation and in Jesus through the valleys. But I have to admit it is hard to keep my eyes on the good things and to give thanks in my trials. When someone wounds me my reaction is that I can’t believe a someone in Christ would do that, but then I have to remember we are all fallen and prone to sin.
Due to that fact that we are sinful makes me want to be forgiving and to show mercy. But at the same time my flesh wants to lash out and return evil for evil. I have to remember that the Lord says that vengeance is His. To return vengeance would be in complete disobedience to Him. And like I said before I am not going to sin when I know I it is wrong. I have sinned willfully a couple of times and each time I balled like a baby. I don’t want to go through that again. It literally felt like someone had died. Thank God for repentance.
The more trails I go through the more patience and peace I have through my other experiences. A book that has encouraged me is a biography on “George Muller”. If you have never read or heard about him, look him up. He experienced many trials and answered prayers. His life makes me want to be on my hands and knees all the time to wait and see what God will do. I want my faith to be as strong as his was.
Back to these trials. The Lord and time will mend my heart and lead me to green pastures. I will wait on Jesus to lead me and take me through this fire. It may not be easy but I know I can get through this with Him. Stay faithful friends to the end.
I noticed this week that I am quick in my reactions to anger, frustration, happiness and all my other emotions. James 1:19 Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger;
I allow my emotions to dictate what comes out of my mouth. It isn’t always good things that come forth. Luke 6:45 …For out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks.
This week as a wife, mother and a Christian I will be working on yielding to the Lord’s word in this area of my life.
I am doing this by praying more, setting my mind on loving others, desiring to show Christ likeness, and thinking if Jesus’ crucifixion was worth whatever sinful attitude that is produced in my actions and reactions through my mouth and attitude. This isn’t going to be easy. This requires me to die to myself moment by moment and to put others before me.
My sinful nature is to put me first. I do this often in my heart. The Holy Spirit is quick to convict me. The convictions at first are frustrating but then I realize I am fighting God and not doing his will. I then feel so hurt because I love the Lord with all my heart and I desire to please Him. My heart tells me when I am being disrespectful toward God and His word. I don’t want to purposefully sin and do that which I know I is wrong. Lead me Lord in your ways and not my own. I know I am but flesh and a descendant of Abraham, but I have been made holy through the blood of Jesus. Surely you can keep me from falling. I stumble but you catch me and help me keep my footing to walk down that straight and narrow path that you laid before me. You knew me before I was born and you know me now. You know where my heart is and that it is truly yours. I long to be in your presence and for the day I will be with in your presence. You alone are my one desire! May you be glorified in all that I do as I walk this earth as a wife, mother, friend and as your child.